Things to do before i die…

to ’somebody’,

yup.. i read ur blog post..

yes.. undeniably i was shocked…

but i did know it was coming.. juz that i dunno when…

u don’t need to plead for forgiveness,

u don’t need to say anymore sorries,

cos wats done has been done,

you can’t turn back d time…

it’s weird.

u didn’t mean to hurt me,

so u told me lies…

when all i needed was the truth…

and when i thought all was well,

u two did wat u did in front of me..

do you two seriously think i won’t be hurt by that?

u didn’t want to hurt me,

but you did b’cos u told me a lie when i needed the truth,

and b’cos u didn’t even try to hide the truth from me afterwards..

i have forgiven, i really have…

i just need time to forget…

and don’t worry… we’re still friends

but juz like i said,

things juz won’t be the same…

it never will be…

take care… wishing u all d best in ur future…

n i guess today will be ur last hip hop class?

i won’t be going though..

doc’s orders…

wth…

at least i hav a reason to drink…

to: whom it concerns…

i saw ur profile change..

and my heart skipped a beat.

my tears nearly fell.

it’s weird really… that something so small can affect me…

but it did…

*i guess i have to put my feelings away

and bottle it up for every other day

until my feelings die

and the sun goes by

until i feel it’s time

to come out again

to face the rain

the turbulance in the air

and

to find my happiness

and

to forget the hurt

but for now

i huddle in hurt

i stare and see

i know i can’t change anything

never in history

the only thing i can do

is to forget… about you…*

this is my 2nd blog… my primary blog will still be at http://tinyfish228.blogspot.com/

the main purpose of this blog… well… it’s just to emo now and then… and blog about what i plan to do before i die…

morbid? maybe… but since everyone will die sooner or later… i guess i hav to start planning now… cos u nvr know when i’m going to die.. =)

there’s a high possibility i’ll die earlier… hav been making up a list of ways to die… but don’t worry up till now i haven’t found a suitable method…yet.

plus i think i’m not that brave either.. *blek*

but i dunno wat might push me over d edge… hav been through something recently.. lies n betrayal… it’s kinda prompted me to relook over my list…

erm…hehehe…dun mind me… not gonna die yet… at least not for the time being… =P